ChOoSinG tHe RiGhT PaTh; MaKinG tHe RiGhT DeCiSiOn...

oh boy, i never do learn my lessons, do i? Exams are starting on monday, may 9th. hey didn't i say i'm gonna stop blogging for some time? lolxxx... i really need to study my butt off... enough of sweet lies and empty promises. can mich do it??!! can she do it?? can she??? CAN SHE????? haha okay enough...

-adieu-

SmiLe LiKe YoU mEaN iT - tHe KiLLeRs

Save some face, you know you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young
Boy, one day you'll be a man
Oh girl, he'll help you understand
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

Looking back at sunsets on the Eastside
We lost track of the time
Dreams aren't what they used to be
Some things slide by so carelessly
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

And someone is calling my name
From the back of the restaurant
And someone is playing a game
In the house that I grew up in
And someone will drive her around
Down the same streets that I did
On the same streets that I did

Smile like you mean it.........
Oh no, oh no no no.......

LauRa - ScIsSoR sIsTeRs

Laura, can't you give me some time,
I got to give myself one more chance.
To be the man that I know I am.
To be the man that I know I am.
Won't you just tell Cincinnati,
I'm gonna need your love.
Don't you give me your love?

Don't you give me your,
Ch'mon, Ch'mon,
Where is your love?
Don't you give me your love,
Don't you give me your,
Ch'mon, Ch'mon,
Where is your love?
Don't you give me your love?
Don't you give me your.

Freeda, cant you spare me a dime?
I got to give myself one more chance.
To ring the band that I know I'm in.
To ring the band that I know I'm in.
Won't you just tell Baby Daddy,
I'm gonna need his love.
Why don't you give me he love? (note da *he... umm lalala...)
Why don't you give me he,
Ch'mon, Ch'mon,
Where is your love?
Don't you give me your love,
Don't you give me your,
Ch'mon, Ch'mon,
Where is your love?
Don't you give me your love.
Don't you give me your.

This'll be the last time,
I ever do your hair.
One face among the many,
I never thought you cared.
This'll be the last time,
I ever do your hair.
One face among the many,
I never thought you cared

[man... i love this song, can't seem to get it outta my head]

Exam,...need...to...revise...*gasp*

What on earth am i still doing here?!?! LoxXx... i should be touching my books or something. May 9th... gosh. All of a sudden i remembered bout my prayer book. Yeah i'm gonna touch it... see yah ppl... take care

*cOuGh CoUgH*

Saying it and doing it are two different things. It doesn't mean a thing if you say it but yet you don't do it. But the worst thing is that you think you do. Say what you mean and mean what you say...

So it has come to this...

to YOU out there... open your blardee eyes and read properly... did i say that u want something? You said it yourself that you expect something in return... " but i NEVER get anything in return... nothing... i get NOTHING...." Yes... a simple thank you is great enough. What more do you want? Like... don't you ever get 'thank yous' in your life? Don't YOU know that it's always better to be a giver than a taker? You should give although you don't expect to receive... what if that person is not capable of repaying your kindness? When you help people... you'd fell happy that you're able to help somebody. You don't think about taking something from them do you? As YOU said, when it comes to friendships... " don't you know that friends should GIVE and TAKE "... how would you know that you won't receive... it's just a matter of time... your friends might help you when you're in need. You may not receive now but you'll never know when. You don't have to be FAIR when it comes to GENEROSITY. Why would you wanna be equal? Why would you wanna receive what you gave? That person you're helping might deserve more than you, so why would you wanna calculate with that person? If you're generous enough... you give. Let me tell you, when you help a person, it's not called SINCERITY if you expect something in return. That means you have a motive when you're helping that person... you expect them to repay you. So YOU're telling me you don't get people to thank you for your help? Why... what a pity. Hey, you just don't get all down and depressed coz you don't get a thank you for your help, you just brush it off and move on with life, maybe that person forgot to thank you, so what? you don't have to be bitter and keep it all in your heart and get cranky about it. It doesn't matter that much... you're happy enough that you helped. If you have helped them, then they will repay your kindness, it's just a matter of time, which you'll never know when. You should ask yourself why your friends don't like you, maybe the problem is with you... not your friends. You don't have to change your attitude if you're comfortable with it. Nobody's asking you to change your attitude. Just don't be too much, don't cross the line.

[p/s: to YOU, you don't have to lash out at people like that. I'm just saying what there is to say. Since when i don't answer you? You're the one who's not asnwering me all the time, act like you didnt hear me. It's me who's like talking to the wall. Who's the one with no manners now. Fine... you can shut your mouth for all i care.]

hOw CaN It bE??!!

wtf??!! OMG la! shyt la i tell you! This is so unfair... Anwar left American Idol!!! Waaaa.... Anwar!!! He's practically one of the best there... he should be in the Top 3. Why??!! Americans don't vote for him that's why!!! Fck it! They vote that... that Scott which i hate so much... for the sake of sympathy!!! There's nothing special bout him... talentless. Waaaa... i can't take it... Anwar... come back!!! He's got that million dollar smile that melts people's hearts... and super adorable. Are those americans blind? or deaf even?? Anwar's voice is outstanding... superb okay... i just don't get it! Credits go to Constantine... (err Keanu Reeves) and Bo Bice too. Full of praises for the three of em'. Anwar is of course... the best... sobs la... why he had to leave??? Sheesh-es... ish-es... jeez americans... vote for the talented not the talentless!!! Okay okay cool down... getting emotional...

JinXeD...

The puzzles are coming together now. Never realise this before. I don't get it... It seems that i'm not meant to have pets. They won't live for long, they'll all die somehow. All my pets will somehow end up dead (except for Russell; which i don't know why is he still alive) and my lil bro, Daniel's pets are still alive. For instance, my rabbit Hazel and his, Snow. Hazel had some babies and one of my favourite is Cherry, an exact replica of Hazel. Then... Hazel went missing. I can't remember but i think Cherry died. Then Snow had babies too, my favourite was Phoebe, which is an exact replica of Snow too. Really loved that Phoebe... got bitten by my stupid dog and died of shock. Snow is still around... but she's a crazy bunny which attacks people. Lolxxx... My fishes died... countless of them, i bred them myself. My tortoise died of starvation... doesn't wanna eat. I had 2 hamsters earlier, got bitten by stupid Russell... jealous freak. Then i had another 2 hamsters... Kye and Hikki... dead... yeap you guessed it right... dead by Russell again. Why don't Russell just die so i can get a better dog... like a miniature Schnauzer. Waiting for the day he dies... 12 years more, that is if he's lucky... of course he's lucky, he lives in the house... what could possibly happen to him. My bro's hamster, Dash died yeaterday for reasons unknown. I'm hamsterless now... no more hamsters to play with. I'm left with a crazy bunny and a stupid dog. But mom wants to get another tortoise... tortoises are a bore!!! Hope it doesn't have attitude problem like the previous one.

sOuL-SeArChInG...

Lets get sentimental, shall we? Urm... maybe not too sentimental. Just looking for the definition of life. It's time that we look at the smaller things in life; things that you don't take much notice of... things that you thought were a waste of time... things that you tend to take for granted. For instance, when i look up at the vast blue sky, i'm more peaceful, calm, cool and contented. We don't take notice to the little things that could make life more precious and worthwhile. How bout a day out with nature? Have some colour in your life. How bout looking at the stars and the moon? Find that little thing that makes you feel happy... forget about the past, make the present worth and move on with the future. You might not know what the future holds for you, just put in a little effort and it will take you where you want to go. But if you don't strive to put some effort in, all i can say is that it will take you nowhere.

It's time that i dig deep into my heart and find what i really want to do with my life. Time to go for some soul-searching. I can't be blurry no more. Can't be fickle-minded anymore. Can't be in denial anymore. I need to take a stand, make a life decision. I don't have much time left. A few months more before the life-changing, decision-making time of my life. Might not be the biggest obstacle that i will have to face throughout my entire life, but... take one step at a time. It's my biggest obstacle now. How will i manage it? I am determined to fufill my parents' and teachers' expectations. Dad expects a minimum of 5As, Mom? I don't know bout her but she will definitely compare me with my cousin. Teacher? Hahaha... what a memorable chemistry tuition class i had today... received life lessons from my wise teacher. I felt like i have disappointed her, she felt that we have disappointed her. Yes, yes... there were scoldings but i truly understand that it was our fault. I have come to my senses now...

Nonetheless, this doesn't just concern me alone. This concerns everybody, especially SPM candidates of 2005. Whoa people! Lets get it over and done with... with flying colours of course! Weeeee.....!!!

NoIsE FrOm ThE BaSeMeNT...

I find it very appaling... truly. Would you mind to share this with me? Come on... feel it. Here we go... Some individuals think that giving is taking. But to my opinion and many others; you have to agree with me right... that when you give or offer help, you don't expect to receive... do you? It's known as the act of "SINCERITY", there... right at your face. Don't know what it means? Why, that means that word doesn't exist in your so-called life... But i recommend you a trusty thing called the dictionary, perhaps with it you'll find the meaning of life itself. How in the world can you give and expect something in return? That's totally outrageous, that's called faking it. Well, if you receive something back, beyond your expectations, then it's your luck, thanks to your sincerity. If you're not really sincere or if you don't really wanna do it, then don't do it, don't force yourself, nobody's gonna force you... therefore you can't blame them for your loss. Even if you've done lotsa deeds and you don't get anything in return, you don't have to tell the whole world about it and expect people to sympathize you. That's just not right. Don't do things just to get recognition... it doesn't work, somehow it'll lead to something else. Don't just think about yourself, put yourself in others' shoes. Be humble... there, another word for u to look up... humility is the key to harmony. Be a giver, than a taker. Imagine a world with nothing to give but everything to take... how will it be? Ask yourself that.
-to a certain individual-

to you ppl out there, wanna share this with everybody else? just post some comments okay?

Mr BrIgHtSiDe - The Killers

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside
I never...
I never...
I never...
I never...

[mishie e.]
-Whoa! Hot Fuss!!

GiRL aLL tHe BaD gUyS wAnT - Bowling For Soup

8 o'clock, Monday night and I'm waitin'
To finally talk to a girl a little cooler than me.
Her name is Lola, she's a rocker with a nose ring,
She wears a two way, but I'm not quite sure what that means.

And when she walks,
All the wind blows and the angels sing.
She doesn't notice me!

Cause she is watchin' wrestling
Creamin' over tough guys
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes

It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She's the girl all the bad guys want!

She likes the godsmack and I like agent orange
Her cd changer's full of singers that are mad at their dad
She says she'd like to score some reefer and a forty
She'll never know that I'm the best that she'll never have

And when she walks,
All the wind blows and the angels sing.
She'll never notice me!

Cause she is watchin' wrestling
Creamin' over tough guys
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes

She likes 'em with a moustache
Racetrack season pass
Drivin' in a Trans-Am
Does a mullet make a man?

It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She's the girl all the bad guys want! ...

There she goes again
With fishnets on, and dreadlocks in her hair
She broke my heart, I wanna be sedated
All I wanted was to see her naked!

Now I am watchin' wrestling
Tryin' to be a tough guy
Listenin' to rap metal
Turntables in my eyes
I can't grow a moustache
And I ain't got no season pass
All I got's a moped...moped....moped.....

It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me, then you'd be
Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!
'Cause she's the girl all the bad guys want!...

[mishie e.]